You know that "Rethink Your Shrink" I was telling you about that's going on over at The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans? Every Monday they're assigning HOMEWORK. lol. Due on Friday. Hence, the Friday post called the Monday Project. This challenge is all about digging deep and rethinking how you think about your body and weight loss and helping understand what does and doesn't work FOR YOU.
What about 2009 (and beyond) did not work?
Not being conscious of what I was eating. Not making ME a priority and making sure that I carved out my time to run, workout, whatever. I did really well from January to August when we were in Boyceville and I had my friends to walk with and I was training for the two 5K's I ran, but once we moved, I had no motivation. And it's harder to do it when we live in the country vs. living in town.
What were my goals?
Last year I wanted to run 2 5K's prior to my 30th birthday. And I did. But, I was unable to run them without stopping.
Did I fall short of achieving them? If so, why?
Yes and no here. I DID run the 5K's...both of them and yes, I did improve my time in the second one. But, I was lax on the training and should have trained harder. When we moved, I didn't run as often as I should have and I didn't work out real hard after my Monday night workouts were over in spring.
What were my biggest obstacles?
Having four kids and a hubby that isn't always available for childcare. And moving. We moved from a city house to a country house. I don't walk the kids to school anymore (we're too far). I haven't made me a priority in a looooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggg time.
What was my “rock bottom” moment?
That's me in the white. Seeing this picture literally HURT. I think I'd already started my journey when this was taken. Hitting 208 on my 5'9" frame. I KNOW that I weighed more than that at one time or another, but seeing that number for some reason gave me the push I needed to think about changing my habits and losing the weight. Looking in the mirror and hating what I saw. Having such intense back pain that I had trouble just making it through the day, let alone play with the kids or workout.
What are my bad habits?
lol, you got that kind of time? Honestly, chocolate is the biggest problem for me. I have taken pretty big steps toward making smaller portion sizes and better choices, but still have a long way to go. I also have trouble making meal plans that are healthy, taste good and are kid friendly. I seek sweet snacks and look to fruit first, but when that's not easily available, I go for junk.
What has worked?
Counting calories. Online support. Real life support. I love a good challenge like this one from The Sisterhood. SparkPeople was a good help, but I hated having to enter everything in all the time, but it kept me conscious. Eating smaller meals more often so I'm not over eating at one meal.
So that's it. That's what's in my head and what's going on. I have strong feelings of not being enough for everyone and that plays into this all, too. I give too much of me to everything else that there's nothing left and I feel tired and drained and it takes a few days/weeks to drag myself out of that again. Especially in the winter when I don't even want to leave the house.
Here is the "I can't believe I'm posting this" before picture...please remember, I've had FOUR kids...
Here's my list of goals for 2010:
*Weight in the 150-160 range (I'm at 182 now)
*Run a 10K by Thanksgiving. I think I'll do the PickleFest 10K in August.
*Make healthier meals
*Read one non-fiction book each month. Most of my reading is fiction and I think I'll find some value in adding non-fiction.
*Make time for each of my four kids separately. There's a whole range of things we can do, but I'm sure that each of my boys will benefit from even just a walk around the neighborhood with just me and no brothers tagging along.